The Wave

Accepting the reality of “what is” is often one of the hardest things we as Christians are asked to do…
The disappointment of a change never coming, can be a knee-breaking experience from which a recovery feels beyond reproach…
Accepting the person that was chosen to love and protect you can change, but probably won’t…
Accepting a “bad” doctor’s report can change, but probably won’t…
This reluctant acceptance can circumcise the heart in a way that approaches a dimension of hurt that feels almost unrecoverable.
So what do you do when you’ve invested all your heart and soul in a situation that could change, but probably won’t?
First….
You cry…
In fact…you cry a lot…
pexels-photo-405131.jpegYou open the floodgates of your soul and allow the depths of your pain to overtake you like the waves of the ocean…
And you fall…
And you’re reminded…
Just how vulnerable you are…
That no matter how deluded we are…
we are yet often one wave away from a complete smack down..
And it hurts…
and that hurt unsettles all the sand of insecurity and hurt on which you stood…
And then…
you wipe the smack of the wave that submerged you from your face…
And you keep blinking until the burn from the salt-soaked surf releases it grip.
You test your footing. ..
And tell yourself. ..
I’m ok…
I survived…
I may be knocked down, but I’m ok. ..
And you remind yourself a little saltwater never killed nobody…
And the next time…
You decide…
This time…
I’m just gonna channel my inner surfer girl and ride the heck out of that wave…
And not fight it…
And know…
like the last wave…
I’m gonna be…ok.
And you pray…
Oh Lord…
this smackdown hurts…
In fact, it stings…
but I ask You to remind me oh Lord,
this is not my first wave, and it likely won’t be my last.
Remind me of the waves of my childhood. The ones that knocked me down, and at times overtook me…
but never unsettled my resolve to get up…and ride on…
May I take this knocked down time to: “feed on Your faithfulness,” and sip on “Your lovingkindness before my eyes,”
so that I can ride this wave right past the eyes of my horizon…
into Your loving arms…
yet again.
In Jesus’ name. Amen.
“Trust in the Lord, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness.”
Psalms 37:3 NKJV
“For Your lovingkindness is before my eyes, And I have walked in Your truth.”
Psalms 26:3 NKJV

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